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		<title>Stare Decisis and the Priesthood Ban</title>
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		<description><![CDATA[Here is another example of LDS Church leaders retiring unwanted doctrine by playing with the concepts of “policy” and “doctrine&#8221; in order to avoid violating LDS stare decisis.
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			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Here is another example of LDS Church leaders retiring unwanted doctrine by playing with the concepts of “policy” and “doctrine&#8221; in order to avoid violating <a href="http://www.poorwayfaringman.net/blog/archives/834/stare-decisis-and-the-prophets" target="_blank">LDS <em>stare decisis</em></a>.</p>
<p>Despite early acceptance of black men into the LDS priesthood, the Church, beginning with Brigham Young in at least 1852 (and <a href="http://www.angelfire.com/mo2/blackmormon/q39.htm" target="_blank">possibly earlier</a>, with Joseph Smith), taught for more than 100 years that black people bore the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curse_and_mark_of_Cain#Mormonism" target="_blank">Mark of Cain</a>, which labeled them as a cursed and disfavored people in the eyes of God, and unable, therefore, to be part of the LDS priesthood. <span id="more-863"></span>President Young said <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curse_and_mark_of_Cain#cite_note-18" target="_blank">the following</a>:</p>
<blockquote><p>[A]ny man having one drop of the seed of [Cain] … in him cannot hold the priesthood and if no other Prophet ever spake it before I will say it now in the name of Jesus Christ…</p>
<p>Recorded in the <em>Diary of Wilford Woodruff</em>, January 16, 1852</p></blockquote>
<p>Later, in 1947, the First Presidency of the Church made <a href="http://www.mormonthink.com/blackweb.htm#doctrineorpolicy" target="_blank">the following official statement</a> of LDS doctrine:</p>
<blockquote><p>From the days of the Prophet Joseph Smith even until now, it has been the doctrine of the Church, never questioned by Church leaders, that the Negroes are not entitled to the full blessings of the Gospel.</p>
<p><em>Statement of The First Presidency on the Negro Question</em>, July 17 1947, quoted in <em>Mormonism and the Negro</em>, pp.46-7</p></blockquote>
<p>Two years later, the First Presidency <a href="http://www.mormonthink.com/blackweb.htm#doctrineorpolicy" target="_blank">again reiterated</a> the doctrinal, non-policy nature of the ban:</p>
<blockquote><p>The attitude of the Church with reference to Negroes remains as it has always stood. It is not a matter of the declaration of a policy but of direct commandment from the Lord, on which is founded the doctrine of the Church from the days of its organization, to the effect that Negroes may become members of the Church but that they are not entitled to the priesthood at the present time.</p>
<p><em>The First Presidency on the Negro Question</em>, 17 Aug. 1949</p></blockquote>
<p>This LDS doctrine did not age well. The African-American Civil Rights Movement (which roiled the leadership of the Church<sup>1</sup>) rolled forward , and the popularity of race discrimination began to wane. In the years prior to the <em><a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brown_v._Board_of_Education" target="_blank">Brown</a> </em>case,<em> </em>the Church attempted to officially explain its reasoning with respect to the racially discriminatory doctrine. In 1951, the First Presidency published the <a href="http://www.mormonthink.com/blackweb.htm#doctrineorpolicy" target="_blank">following statement</a>:</p>
<blockquote><p>The position of the Church regarding the Negro may be understood when another doctrine of the church is kept in mind, namely, that the conduct of spirits in the pre-mortal existence has some determining effect upon the conditions and circumstances under which these spirits take on mortality&#8230; Under this principle there is no injustice whatsoever involved in this deprivation as to the holding of the priesthood by the Negroes&#8230;</p>
<p>[The Church believes that] Man will be punished for his own sins and not for Adam&#8217;s transgression. If this is carried further, it would imply that the Negro is punished or allotted to a certain position on this earth, not because of Cain&#8217;s transgression, but came to earth through the loins of Cain because of his failure to achieve other stature in the spirit world.</p></blockquote>
<p>Yes, the Church found itself in a hole created by its doctrine that got deeper and uglier over time. Finally, in 1978, about a decade after the <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Martin_Luther_King,_Jr._assassination" target="_blank">assassination of Rev. Martin Luther King Jr.</a>, the leaders of the Church felt that it was time for the Church to retire the doctrine. They did so through a <a href="http://scriptures.lds.org/od/2" target="_blank">letter</a>, read in General Conference, announcing that all &#8220;worthy&#8221; males, regardless of race could now hold the priesthood.</p>
<p>In the years leading up to the change, Church leaders had made what appear to be efforts to begin preparing the Church for a change, characterizing the priesthood ban as a mere policy, even more vocally and clearly than they did with polygamy. As early as 1954, President David O. McKay was teaching that the priesthood ban was not doctrinal:</p>
<blockquote><p>There is no doctrine in this church and there never was a doctrine in this church to the effect that the Negroes are under any kind of a divine curse.</p>
<p>We believe that we have scriptural precedent for withholding the priesthood from the Negro. It is a practice, not a doctrine and the practice will some day be changed. And that’s all there is to it.</p>
<p>Letter written by Dr. Sterling M. McMurrin, <a href="http://www.blacklds.org/mckay" target="_blank">reported in the <em>Salt Lake Tribune</em></a>, January 15, 1970</p></blockquote>
<p>In 1963, Apostle Spencer W. Kimball (who would be President of the Church at the time the ban was lifted) continued to blur the line between doctrine and policy:</p>
<blockquote><p>The doctrine or policy has not varied in my memory. I know it could. I know the Lord could change his policy and release the ban and forgive the possible error which brought about the deprivation.</p>
<p><span>Kimball, Edward L., <em>The Teachings of Spencer W. Kimball</em>. Bookcraft. p. 448–9</span></p></blockquote>
<p>Today, Church leaders seem to lean more toward calling the priesthood ban a policy or practice that was changed, rather than a doctrine. Recently, Jeffrey R. Holland has said that, despite what his predecessors have said in the past, the status of the ban (as doctrine/policy/practice), and the reason(s) for the ban, are now (and perhaps have always been) unknown:<sup>2</sup></p>
<blockquote><p>I have to concede to my earlier colleagues. &#8230; They, I&#8217;m sure, in their own way, were doing the best they knew to give shape to [the policy], to give context for it, to give even history to it. All I can say is however well intended the explanations were, I think almost all of them were inadequate and/or wrong. &#8230;</p>
<p>At the very least, there should be no effort to perpetuate those efforts to explain why that doctrine existed. I think, to the extent that I know anything about it, as one of the newer and younger [apostles] to come along, &#8230; we simply do not know why that practice, that policy, that doctrine was in place.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.pbs.org/mormons/interviews/holland.html" target="_blank">Interview</a> for <em>The Mormons</em>, PBS documentary, 2006</p></blockquote>
<p>Holland may have just been following Gordon B. Hinckley&#8217;s lead:</p>
<blockquote><p>Helmut Nemetschek (interviewer): Until 1978 no person of color attained the priesthood in your church. Why did it take so long to overcome the racism?</p>
<p>Gordon B. Hinckley: I don&#8217;t know. I don&#8217;t know. I can only say that. (long pause) But it&#8217;s here now.</p>
<p><a href="http://www.mormonthink.com/blackweb.htm#responses" target="_blank">Interview</a>, ZDF German Television, January 29, 2002</p></blockquote>
<p>Unlike the retirement of the polygamy doctrine, there hasn&#8217;t been an effort among leaders of the Church to rehabilitate, or reconcile the modern Church with, the LDS prophets who originated and promoted the priesthood ban doctrine.  This is probably for the best, given the <a href="http://www.realmormonhistory.com/god&amp;skin.htm" target="_blank">frankly dispicable things</a> that came out of their mouths during the ban. One Apostle&#8217;s response was to make an extremely rare exception to <em>stare decisis</em> and explicitly invoke a <em>Brown</em>-like overruling of the past prophets:</p>
<blockquote><p>Forget everything that I have said, or what President Brigham Young or President George Q. Cannon or whoever has said in days past that is contrary to the present revelation. We spoke with a limited understanding and without the light and knowledge that now has come into the world.</p>
<p>Apostle Bruce R. McConkie, CES speech, <em><a href="http://speeches.byu.edu/reader/reader.php?id=11017" target="_blank">All Are Alike Unto God</a></em>, August 18, 1979</p></blockquote>
<p>Gordon B. Hinckley&#8217;s most memorable statement on the topic seems to vaguely imply broad condemnation of his predecessors and even himself (though I don&#8217;t think the faithful heard it that way):<sup>3</sup></p>
<blockquote><p>Now I am told that racial slurs and denigrating remarks are sometimes heard among us. I remind you that no man who makes disparaging remarks concerning those of another race can consider himself a true disciple of Christ. Nor can he consider himself to be in harmony with the teachings of the Church of Christ. How can any man holding the Melchizedek Priesthood arrogantly assume that he is eligible for the priesthood whereas another who lives a righteous life but whose skin is of a different color is ineligible?</p>
<p>General Priesthood Meeting speech, <em><a href="http://www.lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-602-20,00.html" target="_blank">The Need for More Kindness</a></em>, April 1, 2006</p></blockquote>
<p>The LDS Priesthood ban has gone from a rock-solid, eternal doctrine of the Church, to something that may or may not be a doctrine, or a policy, or just some kind of practice of the Church. A few things are clear, however: From the current Church leaders&#8217; perspectives, the priesthood ban was definitely a horrible thing, and they were thrilled that the Church discarded it (whatever type of rule it was), but in a big, cowardly nod to <em>stare decisis</em>, no leader of the Church has (1) openly repudiated the LDS prophets who were responsible for initiating and perpetuating it, or (2) claimed that the ban was not divinely mandated. And that&#8217;s where the issue stands today.<sup>4</sup></p>
<p>-PWM</p>
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<ol class="footnotes"><li id="footnote_0_863" class="footnote">See, e.g., D. Michael Quinn, <em>The Mormon Hierarchy: Extensions of Power</em>. Signature Books. p. 81, describing a struggle between Apostles Ezra Taft Benson and Hugh B. Brown over whether the Civil Rights Movement was part of a communist conspiracy to destroy the United States. Benson, who eventually became President of the Church (1984-94), was insistent (and taught publicly, including in General Conference addresses) that it was a conspiracy.</li><li id="footnote_1_863" class="footnote">Interestingly, while I basically like Holland&#8217;s approach to explaining the issue, it certainly makes him look like he is just as lost as everybody else when it comes to this important topic. Unfortunately for him, he is officially a &#8220;<a href="http://institute.lds.org/manuals/teachings-of-the-livings-prophets/tlp-6-2.asp" target="_blank">special witness of Christ</a>&#8220;, and he and his colleagues at the highest levels of Church leadership not only perpetuate the idea that they receive regular instruction from the resurrected Jesus Christ, they also declare to the world, twice a year, that they are &#8220;<a href="http://lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-1117-8,00.html" target="_blank">prophets, seers, and revelators</a>&#8220;. Jeffrey Holland&#8217;s direct line to God doesn&#8217;t allow him to be as ignorant as everybody else.<br />
This illustrates the difficulty of his situation&#8211;it&#8217;s lose-lose for him. He can ignore <em>stare decisis </em>and disavow the bigotry, but if those dead prophets can be so wrong, what does that say about his own prophetic claims? He can also honor <em>stare decisis</em>, but that means honoring what most of America already thinks is morally and ethically wrong, and what does that say about his prophetic moral compass? He appears to have chosen the former for himself. (What do you expect him to do, deny altogether that he is a prophet who hangs out with Jesus? Yeah, right.  The type of people who end up in the position he is in are not the type who would ever voluntarily relinquish that power.  I would love him to prove me wrong, but he won&#8217;t.) </li><li id="footnote_2_863" class="footnote">In the last sentence of this quote, Hinckley describes the whole Church, including himself, for the entire period prior to 1978, when the ban was lifted. It seems like a subtle statement that the ban was a huge mistake, driven by arrogance. If so, I totally agree with the sentiment, though not the passive, ineffective way it was delivered.</li><li id="footnote_3_863" class="footnote">Note that this is not where the Mark of Cain doctrine stands now, just the priesthood ban.  The Mark of Cain (or <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Curse_of_Ham#In_the_Latter-day_Saint_Movement" target="_blank">Curse of Ham</a>) doctrine itself&#8211;the underlying basis for the priesthood ban&#8211;has never been repudiated by the Church, probably because of <em>stare decisis </em>too.  Yeah, I think that&#8217;s a problem.  It makes lifting the ban much less meaningful, since the underlying beliefs remain racist.  In fact, it seems almost like the bare minimum a post-Civil Rights American church has to do to avoid being a pariah.  Kind of pisses me off, actually.  But I suppose that&#8217;s a topic for another post.</li></ol>]]></content:encoded>
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		<description><![CDATA[There are basically two kinds of people who leave the LDS Church. I will call them &#8220;Jack Mormons&#8221; and &#8220;Apostates&#8221;. Apostates are people who leave (or are excommunicated) because they have stopped believing in some or all of the religious tenets of the LDS faith. Jack Mormons are people who leave (or are excommunicated) for [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>There are basically two kinds of people who leave the LDS Church. I will call them &#8220;Jack Mormons&#8221; and &#8220;Apostates&#8221;. Apostates are people who leave (or are excommunicated) because they have stopped believing in some or all of the religious tenets of the LDS faith. Jack Mormons are people who leave (or are excommunicated) for reasons other than non-belief, like being unable or unwilling to follow the rules, or because of interpersonal conflicts with other community members.</p>
<p><span id="more-149"></span>Jack Mormons, despite having left the Church, continue to view the world essentially through the lens of Mormonism, and maintain the essential beliefs of the mainstream LDS Church. They are basically <em>orthodox</em> (i.e., correct in their religious beliefs), but they are not <em>orthoprax</em> (i.e., correct in their religious practices). Jack Mormons and mainstream members of the LDS Church get along pretty well, because Jack Mormons confirm and support LDS religious beliefs; their only problem is failing to obey the rules.   They agree that they aren&#8217;t doing what they are &#8220;supposed&#8221; to do, and they can often be coaxed back into participation.</p>
<p>Apostates are a different story. Apostates and mainstream members of the LDS Church generally have a much harder time getting along, because Apostates are often neither orthodox nor orthoprax&#8211;they have knowingly discarded the essential LDS paradigm and beliefs, and that is why they do not obey the rules. The dynamic of the relationship is different from the relationship with Jack Mormons&#8211;it&#8217;s not merely about participating (&#8221;active&#8221;) vs. non-participating (&#8221;inactive&#8221;) Mormons, it&#8217;s about believing vs. non-believing Mormons. When believing Mormons engage Apostates, they come dangerously close to questioning their own beliefs, and becoming Apostates themselves. Not surprisingly, the LDS Church openly demonizes and belittles people it considers to be Apostates, and teaches that they are covenant-breaking servants of Satan (see, for example, <a href="http://www.lds.org/ldsorg/v/index.jsp?hideNav=1&amp;locale=0&amp;sourceId=3518b00367c45110VgnVCM100000176f620a____&amp;vgnextoid=da135f74db46c010VgnVCM1000004d82620aRCRD" target="_blank">this 2007 adult Sunday school lesson, titled &#8220;Beware the Bitter Fruits of Apostasy&#8221;</a>, which was recently presented in LDS congregations worldwide).</p>
<p>Apostle Jeffrey R. Holland <a href="http://lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,23-1-1117-28,00.html" target="_blank">recently publicly belittled</a> people who don&#8217;t believe in the literal historicity of the Book of Mormon.  He called them &#8220;foolish&#8221;, &#8220;misled&#8221;, and &#8220;deceived&#8221;, and derided their attempts to explain the origins of the Book of Mormon  in naturalistic terms as &#8220;pathetic&#8221;.  He likened people who leave the Church for intellectual reasons to insects or vermin of some sort who have to &#8220;crawl over, or under, or around the Book of Mormon to make that exit.&#8221;   Jeffrey R. Holland apparently likes to pontificate about the awful fates and consequences that await intellectual dissenters from the Church (<a href="http://www.lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,89-1-353-29,00.html" target="_blank">and their children</a>).  I wrote more about that <a href="http://www.poorwayfaringman.net/blog/archives/8/camping-at-the-periphery" target="_blank">here</a>.</p>
<p>Obviously, if you want to leave, but still maintain relatively positive contact and open relationships with members of LDS communities, it is easier to be a Jack Mormon than to be an Apostate.</p>
<p>-PWM</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[I was born and raised a Mormon, in the LDS Church.  At 19 years of age, I volunteered to be a missionary for the Church and was sent to a foreign country to spread the Gospel for two years.   Upon returning home, I was fully committed to Mormonism.  I believed that [...]]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>I was born and raised a Mormon, in the LDS Church.  At 19 years of age, I volunteered to be a missionary for the Church and was sent to a foreign country to spread the Gospel for two years.   Upon returning home, I was fully committed to Mormonism.  I believed that its doctrines were literally heaven-sent, and that it was the one pure source of philosophical, spiritual, religious, and even secular Truth in this world.  I liked Mormon social institutions and the support they provided me as I followed the path of Truth.  I felt lucky to have been born a Mormon.</p>
<p><span id="more-8"></span>I attended Brigham Young University, and within a few of years of fairly intense study there, I found that current LDS beliefs and practices didn&#8217;t match up with past LDS beliefs and practices, and that both the present and the past Church left much to be desired as God&#8217;s beacon of Truth, wisdom, and enlightenment.  I graduated from &#8220;the Lord&#8217;s University&#8221; with a BA, a pregnant wife, a kid, and very little religious faith in Mormonism.  I tried hard to find an explanation for the state of the LDS Church that could reassure me that God was involved somehow in running the show, but reassurance never came.  I dealt with my severe disappointment by resolving to not take Mormonism so seriously, and to focus on the good that the LDS Church was about as a social institution, rather than its Truth, which I found had a tendency to crumble under scrutiny.</p>
<p>In spring of 2003, after I graduated from BYU,  I listened to an address delivered by LDS Church Apostle Jeffery R. Holland, titled <em><a href="http://www.lds.org/conference/talk/display/0,5232,89-1-353-29,00.html" target="_blank">A Prayer for the Children</a></em>. In it, he said:</p>
<blockquote><p>I speak carefully and lovingly to any of the adults of the Church, parents or  otherwise, who may be given to cynicism or skepticism, who in matters of  whole-souled devotion always seem to hang back a little, who at the Church’s  doctrinal campsite always like to pitch their tents out on the periphery of  religious faith. To all such—whom we do love and wish were more comfortable  camping nearer to us—I say, please be aware that the full price to be paid for such a stance does not always come due in your lifetime. No, sadly, some  elements of this can be a kind of profligate national debt, with payments coming  out of your children’s and grandchildren’s pockets in far more expensive ways than you ever intended it to be.</p></blockquote>
<p>As friendly and gentle as Holland tried to make his words sound, the curse (or threat) they carried rang harshly in my ears.  He was telling me that I must exchange my reticent skepticism and critical thinking for an outward show of &#8220;whole-souled devotion&#8221; to the LDS Church, or there would be hell to pay.  I almost laughed when, a moment later, he declared that in the process of learning about the Gospel, &#8220;there is no place for     coercion     or manipulation, no place for intimidation or hypocrisy.&#8221;  (Coulda fooled me, Jeffrey!)  Over the course of his talk, Holland&#8217;s clear expectation of conformity at all costs marked the first (and not the last) time the rhetoric of an LDS Church leader rubbed me the wrong way.  I was sincere in my skepticism; I had good reason for it.  This Apostle was asking me to be insincere about my beliefs with my own children.</p>
<p>Hearing that manipulative pap from a man who was supposedly one of Jesus Christ&#8217;s key representatives on Earth was a monumental experience for me.  It marked the moment that I realized there may no longer be a place for me at the LDS campfire, and I decided then to embrace my skepticism and critical thinking and set up camp at the periphery of Mormonism.  And here I have remained, a poor wayfaring man of sorts, not really welcome in my own culture.</p>
<p>Who am I?</p>
<p>You might actually know me.  I may have been an anonymous member of your ward, trying my best to blend into the background, biting my tongue in Sunday School, or maybe even serving in a bishopric.  Don&#8217;t worry, even if I do happen to be living in your ward, I generally steer clear of the whole-souled devotees now.  All of the inauthenticity I&#8217;m required to hide behind at church has made the LDS Sunday experience very tedious for me, so I prefer not to participate.  But my wife and children still go to LDS Church meetings nearly every Sunday, and that keeps Mormonism on my mind.</p>
<p>You will probably hear more from me.</p>
<p>-PWM</p>
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